I have 2 hairpins on my head. Anyway
My previous story, "How OCD Got me using Heroin and Amphetamines," is now the sequel. 
From Usain Bolt to Astronaut -
I stayed up 2 nights awake for "Nightmares" for some people when, in reality, I used a lovely amount of Amphetamines mountain. All 2 nights and 2 days just blowing giant fat Amphetamine powder. I just couldn't stop snorting and snorting every 30 minutes, big ass powders. Why? Because as I got to drugs because of Obsessive-compulsive disorder, I continued doing it even when it is now easier to deal with the OCD and the withdrawal symptoms. "Thanks" to Anafranil and Perphenazine; I'm already feeling usual using drugs like it's an ordinary people's everyday routine. From one who liked to sleep made him one who hates sleep and can't even allow himself to lay on the bad. These drugs change my life. Fat Joint is a cigarette for me now. I should have 2 meetings today. Why I couldn't meet with them? 
Ask it yourself.
After I bumped all my MDMA shit 'till the last dime, I couldn't stand the feeling of not snorting ANYTHING anymore. In less than 40 minutes, I started to suffer so much, so I quickly snorted Ketamine that I had left in my drawer. And I'm not talking about snorting, but about BLOWIN'. When I used much powder in Amphetamines at once, I forgot Ketamine needs a much smaller amount. That was a mistake. I had 2 hours before a meeting with someone, I started feeling so bad. It was like a HUGE dissociation with a bottle of Vodka just because of 1 too-long line. The feeling was so insane that the effect passed the average time of how it should last. I felt so bad; I didn't even have a feel. My head spun around, and I saw things moving like pictures and shit. I got into the shower. Luckily, I was still a little sober but with horrible motorics. I canceled those 2 meetings after the shower, and 30 seconds later, I was in my dream.

I did it on purpose. But I still didn't want to cancel those minutes.
When I knew I was going to quit addictive stimulant substances that make you feel alive, I took too much amount of dissociative drugs that made me feel like an astronaut, AKA- dead. 
Why? Because I wanted to end the "I'M ALIVE" feeling to an "I AM DEAD" feeling. 
Which is a compulsive - OCD. and very impulsive act like CD. Like when all the time I committed suicide, I felt so good 2 minutes ago, for some reason. It's like, ending things well.

OCD is ordinary. Thanks for reading.
-Bender